Do you ever wonder about things that people think when they look at you, like the thoughts that propetually roll throughout their mind for no longer than a second after you just said a painstakingly obvious or ludicris statement. like today or everyday, i said something of a peculiar nature to a group of  people and they all just kinda looked my direction like an unfortunate young boy who happnes to weigh more than your usual 5th grader has just walked up and is now flooding their currently occupied space, this boy of extreme stature who is obviously not supposed to be their due to the looks of the individuals who are in the center of the conversation, and i felt like i was a complete outcast. Then it hit me, ya see so many people have an expectation of what you should be, a perfectly rounded specimen, no acne, no suprises, absolutley funny, and never deep. because if he posesses(don’t know if i spelled that one right) words that challenge you more than you ought after the test you had previously bombed then of course the looks that would cause a 12 year old to cry would definetly be thrown violently his way. i mean what makes one person different from another, we’re all different, just some of us are better at hiding it, thats all. The different thoughts of people are all amazing, all created to be different, so that we wouldn’t ever get bored, am i really that abnormal?  Did God make a mistake when he made me, i mean i realize that i’ve got a long ways to go as far as the spiritual aspect of my life is concerned, but none-the-less i hope that you would love me, i love you, each of you. Just a thought…

Written Sunday December 11, 2005

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